been ill

Flu, fever, colds, cough, dizziness, sore throat, head and body ache for the past three days.. 

but I'm all good now.

Mcdo Balanga 417

Why do I always let sleep, or lack of it, get in the way of my plans?? This fact is starting to worry me a whole lot.. Demmit!





Hayyyyy...

irony

you

keep me sane

AND 

ridiculously crazy 

AT THE SAME TIME.

thanks!

the long wait is almost over

One step at a time..

It's all falling into place for me.

Thanks everyone for not giving up. 

That alone made me want to push through.

look who's back

http://twitpic.com/4k1u2u

:-] yeah baby!

up or down

It's an inexplicable feeling when some people prefer to think like they are having the worst downright depressing time of their life whenever you are around them.

a concrete possibility

I was driving on my way home when I saw a part of my future.

I smiled.

---

none the wiser?

No. Definitely Not.

I posted this on my Facebook months back. I was stupid to make decisions that directly counter the principles I have adopted. But I know I am definitely wise enough to thrust assertions like this back into my actions.. I humbly accept the fact that at times, I have failed. But I will continue instilling good vibes into my senses. Beneficial ones like the one that follows..

You will always be sorrowful if all you see in other people are the things that made them hurt you. Reel in new faith, not everything in this world is all cruel and evil.

I need to step up. I need to get back on my feet (for the nth time). I need to dig deeper for I must regain the composure I have so determinedly built for quite a long time. I must not let new revelations get the best of whatever safeguards I have established for myself. However unthinkable the thoughts of these wretched characters maybe, however ridiculous some people would purposely make me seem like. I will not budge again. I will no longer give in. I will be sturdy for being the one who has control over my ideologies signifies the prudence of being the one who has the power to positively manipulate everything in my path and figuratively emancipate anything under my wings.

..

i've had enough of not having you

Nine (9) fucking months.

You've been gone for far too long.

I miss you..

I'm DYING to see you..

I don't know if I can wait any longer..

I want you back.

NOW.

make the most out of it

We are the only ones who can 

provide the cure to the bleeding 

our past mistakes have brought upon 

those we consider important. 

Some don't care about this given truth. 

Some make this their goal in life. 

Some of us maybe fortunate enough to 

accomplish such cases of healing. 

But more often than not, 

some don't even get to have that chance. 

As cliche-ish as it may sound, 

life is really short. 

In a blink of an eye, 

everything that we have, 

within reach or not,

won't matter anymore if the sign spells

T-H-E  E-N-D

for us. 

There will be no more second chances. 

When our journey has reached its conclusion, 

however determined we are to set things right or 

however willful our aims are on 

alleviating the pain we have caused in the past, 

everything proves futile. 

The fact that we don't have 

the power to delay occurrences like these 

makes it all the more complicated for 

such a mission to come to fruition.

Don't just sit there.

Act now.

Make the most out of it.

---

hurdles ahoy!

It's amazing how life smacks us with almost anything and everything.. Sometimes it brings us astonishing experiences that make us feel like we can shoot for the sky and fly.. But most remembered of all are moments when we seem like we're drowning with sadness and sorrow. 

At times, life makes us question ourselves when and how do we let go, when do we give up of the things we have been wishing for? Sometimes we don't even realize that by wishing too hard for something to happen, we are missing way too much on what we have to accomplish. 

So how do we find another way out? How do we stop hearing the echoes of those things that haunt us that right from the start, we never were successful in finding?

Whatever we do to counter the feeling of being aggrieved, something always brings us back to whatever it is that caused it. Is it gravity? Maybe.. But realistically, looking at ourselves might do us good.

I am fragile I know. Sometimes I'd like to think that I'm strong. So my fragile strength it appears to me, I guess, can easily be broken down, especially by people who disguise themselves as someone who would make you feel secured and content..

my neutralizer

Whenever I get way too ecstatic with everything that's been happening... 

This..

Dammit...

positivity

It is knowing what to do to keep yourself in a place where its 

safe to think.. 

safe to believe.. 

safe to dream..

highest of highs and lowest of lows

I gotta say this. My bicol trip has its highest of highs and lowest of lows.

First...

Swimming with the biggest fish in the world is one heckuvan experience!

I was utterly amazed by those gentle giants swimming across the open sea with their mouth's wide open aiming for millions of planktons to feed. I was really tempted to touch the one our group was swimming with pero since it was prohibited to do so, I didn't.

The last dive was when I was given a go by the boatmen but fear got the best of me. LOL! I didn't even know that such a thing exists in my system. They said that since it was the last dive before we head back to shore that I should touch the body or dorsal fin of the whaleshark. I tried. My hand was inches away from it but I got eerily scared by the thought of it slamming my face with its tail (one of the boatmen shared this story about a persistent and hardheaded Australian who gripped the dorsal fin of the fish real hard and when he let go he got slapped in the face by the tail. Since the whole skin of the whaleshark is like sandpaper, the skin on the face of that dumb tourist got scraped by the tail, WTF?? After the said incident, the government of Sorsogon with the DOT, issued this ordinance prohibiting anyone to touch any part of the fish).

But over all, even if I didn't have an underwater camera, just being able to swim on top of it for a good 15 meters gave me one of the most awesome and most exhilirating experiences in my life to date. It would take something extra to top this one off. Probably, when I can do S-bends and Raleys with my wakeboard then this butanding experience will come next. Or maybe skydiving. :)) LOL!

That's the highest of highs.. But before we get to the lowest of lows. There were other places that I got to visit and new experiences that happened and each one is worth putting here. LOL!

 I carried a huge rock with the Mayon Volcano and the Cagsawa Ruins behind me.

And I also got to visit the Mayon Planetarium strategically situated along the slope of the volcano.

One of my FB statuses: 

" I guess I have no one else to rely on but mahself. So now, I'm here at Bigg's about to eat their pasta platter with rock n' roll iced tea. Capital A-L-O-N-E. Nice tunes, btw @ Bigg's."

 and I did something really memorable. :)

Then we headed to CWC. Unfreakinbelievable as it may sound like but it was the place where I experienced the lowest of lows of this trip. The fact that it was the only thing that I looked forward to before this expedition even began, made it what it is. The lowest of lows! (I'm getting sick typing this phrase over and over again. LOL)

 The cable park's disturbingly fucked up!! 

I know right?? How freakin lame was that!! I wanted to learn new tricks. I wanted to feel the wind against my face while I'm standing on a board gliding on the man-made lake purposely constructed for extreme water sports. I wanted to try out doing raleys and 180's and kickers and other obstacles. Shitty! It definitely was!!!! I'm so sick of this that honestly, it kinda made me feel like I shouldn't have come to this trip after all. I will not elaborate on this anymore, that's how pissed off I am.

Bicol Trip: April 2-4 2011

everybody needs a song or two. i needed three..

Sorry That I Loved You - Anthony Neely

The One That Got Away - cover by singindork888

For The First Time - The Script

These songs 

are scientifically manufactured 

for my current state of affairs. 

LOLS

Jollibee Albay - 330AM

Sometimes, you get to meet new people who can negate the wrongdoings of those you have valued greatly. Consequently, these new characters take the unpleasant effects away from your emotions while simultaneously shedding new light to your perspectives. Life has always been like this. Never lose your grip for there's always something surprisingly beautiful that's coming. 


Thank You.

more on 'the past'

The past will definitely come back to haunt you. Yeah it may. But still, NO! Hell to the No!
More often than not, it isn't as horrible as it may seem to be. Because Haunt is such a negatively strong word to use especially when it comes to the matters of the heart, I'd rather think of it as something of the same wavelength as what the things that happened in the past do to keep up with the current you.

For some, the past brings about the emotions they felt when they were so busy sulking over the mistakes they made. For others, the past can bring them into questioning themselves again of the never ending list of the 'what ifs' and the 'what nots'.

But for me, hey I am not trying to be self-righteous here because obviously I don't have any reason to #justsayin, I tend to look at it as a way to realize what certain aspects of me that I can mold more, yeah more like fine-tuning. Anyone will never run out of areas of improvement, that includes you and me. I constantly make myself discover things in me that I can definitely try to improve on.

Yeah the past can make you cry.. Hell it can even mess up the smoothness of how the things are currently going, but it is only on your own accord that things you alone have the power to control will start messing up again.