white

I don't know why but yeah, I swing your way.

True!! Badass really!

Carrera

I'm melting with rage!! 

Dammit!!

Inseparable mixture of Joy and Envy!

My dear sister Grayzel, 

you make me... 

arrrghhh!!!

I can't even put into words how astoundingly jealous I am !! 

I love you! :D

Ten Eight

Today, my youngest sister married the man of her dreams. Who would have thought she would meet this individual far far away from where she was born? I find it funny when I hear people say that Filipinas marry foreigners for money. It's equally hilarious when people think that the only solution to have a better life is to get out of the Philippines and marry someone abroad. I'm just glad that in my sister's case, it just wasn't one of those things. It wasn't one of those things where a Filipina finds a non-Filipino and marries him so she can uplift her status/lifestyle. She was doing really well there even before she met him. Her status was legal and she was earning fairly decently. There are just bonuses in life destined for kindhearted people to earn. It's one thing to be happy. It's another thing to stay that way. I'm just glad it was love that brought them together. Even more for the fact that she is happiest with him. I can never ask for anything more for her. Sincerely. She is so loved by many even with all the funky swinging, roller coaster, unpredictably unending turns of emotions she oh so frequently exudes.

She will always be the princess of our lives, the crazy mood-shifting character that only she in the family has ridiculously mastered. 

To you Jamaica, 

I love you eternally and I wish for God to bless you and Nick the best of everything He can offer from this day on. Cheers to a great new beginning!

Kuya

to you: when something's not enough

I was furtively contemplating on the things I must do in the near future to get partly ahead of what currently is seeming to be the slowest and most moronic pace my life has ever moved to date when I suddenly realized how painfully devastating it must have been for you to have to excruciatingly endure all the stupid things that I did. Believe it or not, my mind just stopped and it somehow felt like it was one of those 'how it was supposed to be' type of thing. Ironically, when it started running again, all I could muster into thinking about was..

I'm Sorry.

I was a dim-witted prick. We both know that. In fact you knew about that even before we started things going. But anyways, so yeah I was a dick. I was even more after what happened. I even surprised myself because I can't seem to know where I got the guts to have still shown my face to you after all that has happened between us.

I have wronged you and for that I know I deserve everything that you're doing to me right now. It's a little too late for this I know, but whatever it is that made me think of writing this, I couldn't be thankful enough for making me appreciate the warmth and tenderness of all the emotions you have shared with me in all those times that we were inseparable.. all those times when we couldn't care less of the shizzits happening around.. all those times...

 when loving just seemed not enough.