undeliverable circumstances

One will have his own fair share of intimate chances and spiteful separations.

People we meet along the way do not always fit our likings. There maybe some who can intrinsically aggravate the hell out of us. There may be some who can easily light up our faces without them knowing. Their differences make these chances more interesting and the challenges of mixing up our mingling capabilities may rise sky high. What's even more significant is the fact that these instances add up to our treasure chest of experiences which at any point we can use at our disposal.

Nothing lasts in this world so just keep on moving forward. Experiment on things and be brave enough to deal with the eventual consequences of your actions. We never know when and where we will find what we have been searching for. So what if we get hurt along the way? Keep on keeping on. Looking back might do us good but more than likely, it'll just make the pain define itself more. It will make you crumble and will instill on you the essence of giving up. Never give in though. 

Every good thing is just around anyone's corner. These things never run out. We just have to be intellectually strategical in acquiring them. Endless possibilities await each and everyone. We can just sit around and wait for things to happen or we can trod into the vastness of blinded opportunities and intimately experience the wonderful element of surprise.

white

I don't know why but yeah, I swing your way.

True!! Badass really!

Carrera

I'm melting with rage!! 

Dammit!!

Inseparable mixture of Joy and Envy!

My dear sister Grayzel, 

you make me... 

arrrghhh!!!

I can't even put into words how astoundingly jealous I am !! 

I love you! :D

Ten Eight

Today, my youngest sister married the man of her dreams. Who would have thought she would meet this individual far far away from where she was born? I find it funny when I hear people say that Filipinas marry foreigners for money. It's equally hilarious when people think that the only solution to have a better life is to get out of the Philippines and marry someone abroad. I'm just glad that in my sister's case, it just wasn't one of those things. It wasn't one of those things where a Filipina finds a non-Filipino and marries him so she can uplift her status/lifestyle. She was doing really well there even before she met him. Her status was legal and she was earning fairly decently. There are just bonuses in life destined for kindhearted people to earn. It's one thing to be happy. It's another thing to stay that way. I'm just glad it was love that brought them together. Even more for the fact that she is happiest with him. I can never ask for anything more for her. Sincerely. She is so loved by many even with all the funky swinging, roller coaster, unpredictably unending turns of emotions she oh so frequently exudes.

She will always be the princess of our lives, the crazy mood-shifting character that only she in the family has ridiculously mastered. 

To you Jamaica, 

I love you eternally and I wish for God to bless you and Nick the best of everything He can offer from this day on. Cheers to a great new beginning!

Kuya

to you: when something's not enough

I was furtively contemplating on the things I must do in the near future to get partly ahead of what currently is seeming to be the slowest and most moronic pace my life has ever moved to date when I suddenly realized how painfully devastating it must have been for you to have to excruciatingly endure all the stupid things that I did. Believe it or not, my mind just stopped and it somehow felt like it was one of those 'how it was supposed to be' type of thing. Ironically, when it started running again, all I could muster into thinking about was..

I'm Sorry.

I was a dim-witted prick. We both know that. In fact you knew about that even before we started things going. But anyways, so yeah I was a dick. I was even more after what happened. I even surprised myself because I can't seem to know where I got the guts to have still shown my face to you after all that has happened between us.

I have wronged you and for that I know I deserve everything that you're doing to me right now. It's a little too late for this I know, but whatever it is that made me think of writing this, I couldn't be thankful enough for making me appreciate the warmth and tenderness of all the emotions you have shared with me in all those times that we were inseparable.. all those times when we couldn't care less of the shizzits happening around.. all those times...

 when loving just seemed not enough.

kismet

        Meeting a random character and becoming distinctly comfortable with that individual happen approximately 1,500 times in a lifetime. Fate may or may not have something to do with it - destiny might or might not have too, nevertheless, chances are, these circumstances, coincidence or planned, brought us to where we are right now.  

          It's not enough to consider the fact that these little instances of arbitrary engagements led us to acknowledge several corresponding reasons - reasons only we can understand and make something out of. But in fact, it is safe to believe that these people struck our lives, however insignificant or important these effects were, in comparative magnitude and contrasting intensities. 

               Some have ensuing repercussions in manners our malleable minds could never seem to fathom. Some imprinted our memories with the lightest of marks that at times in the past had us irritatingly amused with the way we have unintentionally neglected even the most vivid attributes they possess.

tbc...

Australia

New South Wales and Tasmania.
Sydney and Hobart.
02 and 03.
2000 and 7000

2012. 2012. 2012

weird.

Out of the blue, my mom asked me how have you been doing..
Funny as it seems..

"I don't really have a clue."

why now?

i was never really fond of the medical field. so please.. let it go.

that shouldn't surprise you.

the one spending time with you right now

that should be me.

overwhelmed

believe it or not..

I am!!

of course!

Much appreciated, 

definitely!

Thanks bes. Love you!

for always!

three movies in a day

SUPER 8 (A kids/family Movie) 8/10

INSIDIOUS 9/10

SANCTUM (A fathers' day Movie) 10/10

first class

It was the 1030pm screening in Theatre Mall Greenhills.

Funny because more than half of the people in the cinema 

stayed till after the credits 

to see if there was something 

X-Men: The Last Stand-ish to be shown.

I was somewhat disappointed to learn that there wasn't 

but all in all it was a great movie.

Roland Garros

French Open is underway...
I can't believe I'm expecting these people on the 13th and 14th day.
Smiling..

Masha and Nole.

Affirmation

I believe in lots of things. Like the fact that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you. Or that family is more important than money or gold. Or that trust is more important than monogamy. Or that forgiveness is the key to your own happiness. And that you don't know what you got until you say goodbye.

no matter

Dear Lie,

I wouldn't know your thoughts cause you have always been very deceitful. But you would know mine cause I have always stayed true. I want you to know that this one.. This will be the last fuckin post about YOU. And by the fuckin way, do you remember the day when I first fell for u? That day will always be the one that I will regret the most. And I don't fuckin care if you feel the same fuckin way.

Much love (LOL),
Me

the not so golden lake

May 12, 2011

Lago de Oro - Calatagan Batangas

 excited!

 freakin hot!

we don't know anyone but we got free lunch in one of the houses celebrating their town fiesta

waiting for 30 more minutes.

 Yes. I am here. Might as well take pictures of the area.

 One

Two 

Three 

Four..

And it's time! 

Get ready to rumble! 

Woohoo! 

 Hahaha.. Dumped!

Goofin around the Beginners' Lake. 

Green, Pink and Brown. 

The Control Panel 

Pulling you!

Playtime!

And it's time to go home.

And yes, 

however fucked up the place might be 

with all 

the skyrocketing prices 

and 

the 'unlakelike' salty water 

and 

the ultra stiff obstacles...

I'm going back.

I believe

One day you'll see me as a person and not just an Asian.

Thank You

really!

When it rains,

it pours.

you should realize

Long ago, you made me feel like I can fly. 

Once, you made me believe I can do the things I have never dreamt of doing. 

But eventually, you made me see through lots of things. 

So I decided I don't wanna look through your eyes anymore. 

I chose to breathe on my own again. 

Without you. 

Just me. 

It has been quite sometime that I'm doing all these. 

It has been quite sometime, you see.

don't be desp***te

We are done. We are through. I am never going back and never again will I be smelling like you.

my day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

i'm yours

and on Sunday, May 8, 2011,

I will take you home my love.

tis the season to be jolly

I have always liked the month of May.

been ill

Flu, fever, colds, cough, dizziness, sore throat, head and body ache for the past three days.. 

but I'm all good now.

Mcdo Balanga 417

Why do I always let sleep, or lack of it, get in the way of my plans?? This fact is starting to worry me a whole lot.. Demmit!





Hayyyyy...

irony

you

keep me sane

AND 

ridiculously crazy 

AT THE SAME TIME.

thanks!

the long wait is almost over

One step at a time..

It's all falling into place for me.

Thanks everyone for not giving up. 

That alone made me want to push through.

look who's back

http://twitpic.com/4k1u2u

:-] yeah baby!

up or down

It's an inexplicable feeling when some people prefer to think like they are having the worst downright depressing time of their life whenever you are around them.

a concrete possibility

I was driving on my way home when I saw a part of my future.

I smiled.

---

none the wiser?

No. Definitely Not.

I posted this on my Facebook months back. I was stupid to make decisions that directly counter the principles I have adopted. But I know I am definitely wise enough to thrust assertions like this back into my actions.. I humbly accept the fact that at times, I have failed. But I will continue instilling good vibes into my senses. Beneficial ones like the one that follows..

You will always be sorrowful if all you see in other people are the things that made them hurt you. Reel in new faith, not everything in this world is all cruel and evil.

I need to step up. I need to get back on my feet (for the nth time). I need to dig deeper for I must regain the composure I have so determinedly built for quite a long time. I must not let new revelations get the best of whatever safeguards I have established for myself. However unthinkable the thoughts of these wretched characters maybe, however ridiculous some people would purposely make me seem like. I will not budge again. I will no longer give in. I will be sturdy for being the one who has control over my ideologies signifies the prudence of being the one who has the power to positively manipulate everything in my path and figuratively emancipate anything under my wings.

..

i've had enough of not having you

Nine (9) fucking months.

You've been gone for far too long.

I miss you..

I'm DYING to see you..

I don't know if I can wait any longer..

I want you back.

NOW.

make the most out of it

We are the only ones who can 

provide the cure to the bleeding 

our past mistakes have brought upon 

those we consider important. 

Some don't care about this given truth. 

Some make this their goal in life. 

Some of us maybe fortunate enough to 

accomplish such cases of healing. 

But more often than not, 

some don't even get to have that chance. 

As cliche-ish as it may sound, 

life is really short. 

In a blink of an eye, 

everything that we have, 

within reach or not,

won't matter anymore if the sign spells

T-H-E  E-N-D

for us. 

There will be no more second chances. 

When our journey has reached its conclusion, 

however determined we are to set things right or 

however willful our aims are on 

alleviating the pain we have caused in the past, 

everything proves futile. 

The fact that we don't have 

the power to delay occurrences like these 

makes it all the more complicated for 

such a mission to come to fruition.

Don't just sit there.

Act now.

Make the most out of it.

---

hurdles ahoy!

It's amazing how life smacks us with almost anything and everything.. Sometimes it brings us astonishing experiences that make us feel like we can shoot for the sky and fly.. But most remembered of all are moments when we seem like we're drowning with sadness and sorrow. 

At times, life makes us question ourselves when and how do we let go, when do we give up of the things we have been wishing for? Sometimes we don't even realize that by wishing too hard for something to happen, we are missing way too much on what we have to accomplish. 

So how do we find another way out? How do we stop hearing the echoes of those things that haunt us that right from the start, we never were successful in finding?

Whatever we do to counter the feeling of being aggrieved, something always brings us back to whatever it is that caused it. Is it gravity? Maybe.. But realistically, looking at ourselves might do us good.

I am fragile I know. Sometimes I'd like to think that I'm strong. So my fragile strength it appears to me, I guess, can easily be broken down, especially by people who disguise themselves as someone who would make you feel secured and content..

my neutralizer

Whenever I get way too ecstatic with everything that's been happening... 

This..

Dammit...

positivity

It is knowing what to do to keep yourself in a place where its 

safe to think.. 

safe to believe.. 

safe to dream..

highest of highs and lowest of lows

I gotta say this. My bicol trip has its highest of highs and lowest of lows.

First...

Swimming with the biggest fish in the world is one heckuvan experience!

I was utterly amazed by those gentle giants swimming across the open sea with their mouth's wide open aiming for millions of planktons to feed. I was really tempted to touch the one our group was swimming with pero since it was prohibited to do so, I didn't.

The last dive was when I was given a go by the boatmen but fear got the best of me. LOL! I didn't even know that such a thing exists in my system. They said that since it was the last dive before we head back to shore that I should touch the body or dorsal fin of the whaleshark. I tried. My hand was inches away from it but I got eerily scared by the thought of it slamming my face with its tail (one of the boatmen shared this story about a persistent and hardheaded Australian who gripped the dorsal fin of the fish real hard and when he let go he got slapped in the face by the tail. Since the whole skin of the whaleshark is like sandpaper, the skin on the face of that dumb tourist got scraped by the tail, WTF?? After the said incident, the government of Sorsogon with the DOT, issued this ordinance prohibiting anyone to touch any part of the fish).

But over all, even if I didn't have an underwater camera, just being able to swim on top of it for a good 15 meters gave me one of the most awesome and most exhilirating experiences in my life to date. It would take something extra to top this one off. Probably, when I can do S-bends and Raleys with my wakeboard then this butanding experience will come next. Or maybe skydiving. :)) LOL!

That's the highest of highs.. But before we get to the lowest of lows. There were other places that I got to visit and new experiences that happened and each one is worth putting here. LOL!

 I carried a huge rock with the Mayon Volcano and the Cagsawa Ruins behind me.

And I also got to visit the Mayon Planetarium strategically situated along the slope of the volcano.

One of my FB statuses: 

" I guess I have no one else to rely on but mahself. So now, I'm here at Bigg's about to eat their pasta platter with rock n' roll iced tea. Capital A-L-O-N-E. Nice tunes, btw @ Bigg's."

 and I did something really memorable. :)

Then we headed to CWC. Unfreakinbelievable as it may sound like but it was the place where I experienced the lowest of lows of this trip. The fact that it was the only thing that I looked forward to before this expedition even began, made it what it is. The lowest of lows! (I'm getting sick typing this phrase over and over again. LOL)

 The cable park's disturbingly fucked up!! 

I know right?? How freakin lame was that!! I wanted to learn new tricks. I wanted to feel the wind against my face while I'm standing on a board gliding on the man-made lake purposely constructed for extreme water sports. I wanted to try out doing raleys and 180's and kickers and other obstacles. Shitty! It definitely was!!!! I'm so sick of this that honestly, it kinda made me feel like I shouldn't have come to this trip after all. I will not elaborate on this anymore, that's how pissed off I am.

Bicol Trip: April 2-4 2011