you make me feel like

It's highschool all over again.
[Ansaya Tangina! =))]

Always Think of Fighting Back

It will make you cry.. There will be no turning back.. It's not like a switch that you can turn on and off whenever you feel the desire of doing so.. If you let it, for sure it will be something that will stay with you no matter what.. The more you dread it, the more it will haunt you. Believe in the power of gradual forgiveness. Cause even if you try letting it go, but you're still full of anger and hatred, the thing that you are loosening up your grip from will eventually catch up on you. Running away won't do you any good. It will just make things worse.. So, always think of fighting back.

 

Acceptance is the key to several doors.. These are doors that will lead you to different paths you yourself can only decide wherever you would want it to take you. Remember that you are the master of your own fate. Rather than sulk over lost cases, know that you can always find eloquent reasons to be happy. Searching for things that once made you smile is relatively easier than looking for ways on how to forget whatever it is that you're trying to forget. But first you need to humbly accept the status quo. Sure it will bring you to the verge of shedding buckets of tears, hell it will even tear you apart.. So let it but always think of fighting back.


Realization and Acceptance are brothers that when hand in hand, can do wonders to wandering people. People who consider themselves lost tend to give up and question why such experiences happen to them. Questioning is one of the advocates of the devil, Denial being the devil. When people aren't successful in looking for answers to their queries, they look for all sorts of escape doors and even try to hide themselves away from reality: blinded by sorrow and severely devastated by grief. At some point, that can be helpful. But these people should know that things will remain the same, if not, worse. When running for cover becomes their resort, the appalling feeling inside builds up magnanimously. They should instead, be vigilant: always think of fighting back.

There is no such thing as an escape hatch or a reset button in life. Welcome it and let it flow in you. Always keep in mind one of the most important mantras in life: What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Have the courage to face the pain. Endure. It will soon be over even before you notice it. But to some, the fear of feeling despair gets the best of them and this has tumultuous effects on people. It blinds you of the fact that there will always be something beautiful that will come your way after, well even during, your times of sadness. Human beings will never get rid of their tendency to forget the fact that faith, hope and love will never leave your side. They are just there, waiting to be called to rescue your dwindling and drowning being. Like reserve officers superbly prepared for battle if ever a sudden war breaks out , FHL will never leave you hanging. Forgetting that you have these three weapons in your armory is like betraying your own self. Don't ever let yourself be left downtrodden and incapacitated. Be vigilant: always think of fighting back.

You can always take something positive out of a forsaken event in your life. Hold on to whatever's left in you and let the remaining light bring you to your feet and guide you out of the darkness that swallowed you. Accept the reality that it's not going to be all bright and shiny all throughout. Establish safeguards for you to be better equipped when another storm comes. Never let negative vibes trample you over. Be brave and sturdy. Stay with the strategies that work and believe that you can always be better. Be vigilant: always think of fighting back.

JOHN SPORT

My name is not John. And hell it's not Sport either. 

 I love them presents!!

These are out of nowhere gifts from my 

mom and pops. :-)

 I love them more.

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Though I'm looking for a bag with this specific color.  

Tennis Balls Yellow/Green.

It'd be like I'm carrying a huge tennis ball behind my back.

That would be insane!! Yeah?

Enjoy Coke

Wow! This vid melted my heart. It gave me goosebumps.. Got me at the edge of my seat for extreme anticipation. Best of all, it almost brought me to tears. Sana araw araw may ganyan; someone shedding hope, happiness, positivity and joy to random people.

Kudos Coca-Cola.

oist!

@IamAngelicaP

I adore you.

Dishwalla equates to Standing Tall

When this happens, when I am everything you ever wanted, will you take me?

Will you open your doors for me? No? Why?
Because you're scared to get hurt again?

When will you see that the last thing I would wanna do is hurt you? 

Why are you so decided to give up on us way before we got things going?

You say prevention is better than cure. Why are you so keen on preventing something good from happening?

Why do you keep your world shut and away from

all the positive vibes only a person who loves you can bring you?

You don't even know how I care for the people that I love. 

You don't even have an idea how it is to be loved by someone like me.

And yet, you chose to turn your back on me.. without warning..

In the end, it's either I give up or you give in. Right now, all I can say is..

I don't know till when...

But I'll hold on to us for as long as I can.

i'm more focused now

i will look good again.
i will get back to doing 200 push-ups again in the mornings and 150 sit-ups before sleeping.
i will eat more.. never will i skip meals again. i will be better. i will always be the kindhearted person that i am.. i will be the man who can't be moved.
i'm tired of just blending in. i will stand out, get ready world for you, i will conquer.

these times are hard and it's making me crazy. even if they give up on me, i for sure as hell won't give up on myself.

please don't.

I can feel the colour running

As it's fading from my face

Try to speak but nothin's coming

Nothing I could say to make you stay

Just a cigarette gone
No you couldn't be that far
I'm driving my car to where I hope you are
Maybe I can talk you down

We're standing on a tiny ledge
Before this goes over the edge
Gonna use my heart and not my head
And try to open up your eyes
This is reletionship suicide
'Coz if you go, I go...

- The Script "Talk You Down"

go on..

Take all the time you need.

I just want you to know,

I'll be here..

Waiting.

some time alone

February 8 and 9

It was FUCKIN worth it. i never thought going out of town alone can be as extremely fulfilling as what i experienced in CWC. Its a world-class watersports complex in Camarines Sur, Bicol. I went there thru cebu pacific. I bought the plane tix for only 170+ Php. Lols. But seriously, its one of those 10-10-10 promos. So yeah, i was supposed to be going with my good friend Atong but unfortunately he happened to have his schedules mixed up and going against the date of the trip. He ended up working during the dates mentioned above. Sayang! Sobrang anticipated pa naman namen tong trip na to. We fell in love kse with wakeboarding eversince the first time we tried it. But honestly though, it was funny because I was considering the thought of not pushing the trip through. But God, again, I only have You to thank for letting me decide on leaving NAIA terminal 3.

Anyways.. I didn't know that the airport was nearer to the wakepark than the Naga City itself.

I was supposed to find a place to stay initially before heading to the wakepark.. 

 Good thing that the difference between the fare set by the colorum vans which bring passengers to the airport and back was a hundred pesos. I just told the driver to drop me off directly to the park. It was just 730am. 

Paid the guy a hundred and smirked at the sight of my goal.

 After a much heated debate between my mind and my wallet on the options I have for my day, I decided to purchase the whole day package. 

Let me tell you, for someone on a very tight budget, this fuckin decision ain't really pocket friendly.

 I decided to roam around the park while its still super early. 

I have free time pa before my 830 call time for the dip (?) 

LOLS

Grilled Tangigue (my favorite among the stuffs they offer)

this was my breakfast =) a good little less than 200pesos.

 I was very keen on learning how to be able to stand on that board.

I was a master of the doubleskis (wakeski) before this trip. 

This picture shows me reaching my goal, right?

(Hey, this board isn't included in the free facilities of riders list. It cost me another seven hush so I can use this thing for half a day!!)

But this was way beyond what I expected. 

Let me reiterate, me surprising myself with the things I never thought I can do has been the trend since the previous year ended. And this was one of those scenarios.

I'll try to describe what I'm feeling right there at that very moment.

No.. Sorry.. Its indescribable.. Its nothing like the emotions I've felt before. 

Probably better than what I've felt when I was in Heinz Field in Pittsburgh watching Bon Jovi live in concert..

But like all good things, this one came to an end. 

I paid a thousand and five bucks for a decent place to spend the night. I was excruciatingly tired and wanting a bed to lie down to so fuckin badly.. But to top those negative vibes off, I felt fulfilled. 

Tiki Hut 13 served its purpose really well.. 

(up till it went freezing on 330AM )

I woke up 6AM and again, explored the area.. 

This picture shows the starting area of wakeboarders and kneeboarders. 

It also shows the rope machine that keeps wakeboarder enthusiasts like me, smiling :) 

Yes, I paid for another hour so I can have a go at it again. 

I was burnt by the time I was supposed to go back to reality :)

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I am honestly expecting these questions to pass by my readers' (if there are) minds..

1.) Am I considering the thought of doing this again? 

Hell fucking yeah! I had a talk with my bestfriend (the one who introduced this amazing activity to me 2 and a half years ago). She was really happy that I was able to accomplish what I accomplished with the trip.. Wakeboarding wise and more. I told her that I realized a lot of things kahit nung andun pa lng ako.. yes, even before I found myself on my way back. She knew I needed a break. I know she felt like there was something I was carrying and that I needed to take my mind off things. I'm happy to let her know that this 'alone trip' has very well served me right :)

2.) What on earth was i thinking? Don't I have friends?

I do have friends. But there's only quite a few. I don't want my answer to be like an angst against those people I considered friends but talk shit about me behind my back, No! I will not even go there. I think that would be a different and separate post :) I guess that would be a long one huh? Going back, there's only a few friends that I really treasure. You have to consider the fact that I'm not the type of person who pretends to be all good with people when in reality, I wanna puke on their faces for being the fakers that they are. Alright! Alright! GOING BACK!! Those people that I wanted to go to CWC with, are either not here in the Philippines or have their own stuffs piling up on them.

3.) Do I plan on going to other places alone?

Yes, but not at the moment. Kelangan ko din magipon. Actually I've been to a lot of my trips with only myself for company. Los Angeles, San Francisco, Virginia, and Singapore. Yeah they're all out of the country trips. And this is the first time I went out of town alone. :) HEY!! This was my first domestic flight ALONE!!!

i miss going on dates like this.

feb 7 2011

the last time we were together was when we were both in Los Angeles working our assess for our own benefits and well-being.

i love my kickass sister. i wouldnt have my unbelievable family any other way than how it already is. she is younger by a year but a lot of people say that she looks older.. :) she is beyond fuckin awesome and i love her to death. she defines the words intelligent and hardworking. but ironically, i must admit, she portrays the life of a happy go lucky guy. (lalo ngaun na meron na syang family). you read it right. don't freakin laugh.

i introduced her to zen tea's nai cha (milk tea), twistix (those deep fried potatoes beautifully spirally stripped), 10" yellow cab pizza - half #4cheese and half of which is new york's finest. she bought her all time favortie iced tea before we went back to my castle. WENDY's

eye refresher: same world

last february 6 i decided to make my living quarters a better place to live in than what it already is. of course i needed help..

this is how my pad looks like right now.

i brought my nintendo wii here from the province so my tv can be used.

next plan is to get rid of this really hideous furniture

but now its all good.

  i asked my dear old friend george aka atong/atonia aka horhe/horhita.. he was keen on giving a hand to what i wanted to accomplish and he did it willingly.. with or without proper sleep.

im more comfortable now with my castle :D